Agony

I might as well go ahead and say it since where, if not here, will I?

I happen to have the privilege of going to class in the distillery district.
All week long I have been seeing people coming and going at the distillery district,
all to set up for FAT (Toronto Alternative Fashion) week.
At the beginnning of the week I put "get tickets to Thursday" on my to-do list.
And then on Tuesday I saw $1.54 in my bank account.

therefore: I get to watch them go in, I get to see them leave, and I get to be the girl on her tiptoes trying to see through the crack in the door, all the while analyzing a script outside.

there's always next year (where the temptation to go scuttling around borrowing money from various sources maybe won't be so great).